Thoughts/Boring Post V

As I'm sitting here chewing on my poor retainer, I realize that the only things going through my mind are mainly about my future but even more so about the people in my life. This lets me realize that it is the people who I care about who give me the drive and motivation to keep going. To keep living...

I guess these are my thoughts..or boring post V

So I was talking to Dylan again (the guy from like all the other boring posts I've made here) and I don't know. He's acting semi-differently but that might just be him being nice. See, I was telling him abou tmy plan this Valentine's Day*. And he kept telling me what a wonderful person I was. I told him I wasn't because my intentions behind it were somewhat selfish. Despite the fact that I wish to brighten up someone's day, I also want the reward of knowing I did well and I also believe in karma so I believe by these good deeds I'll receive some in return. Therefore I'm selfish. but he argued with me. And when he suddenly had to go to work he was sure to tell me exactly where it was street name and all and told me to visit him. I couldn't though because I had a lacrosse tournament.

Oh yeah and the lacrosse tournament went okay I suppose. We played our worst enemies and rivals and lost by like 5 points. Which is pretty good considering they go to state every single year and we never do.

Back to Dylan, I don't know, he's never been like that before he just randomly leaves and he was acting like he wanted me to come visit. But yeah, I'm pretty sure we're just friends..although I will be honest because this is basically my journal. The other day when he was walking out of my school way ahead of me, I knew even if I yelled he wouldn't hear me. So I took out my car keys and when he walked by my car I pressed the alarm. He just paused and turned around and smiled at me. I will admit he looked extremely attractive to me at that moment and my heart did flutter a bit. So regardless of whether I like him as more than a friend...I know that I think he's extremely attractive when he smiles...

*My plan this Valentine's Day is to make everyone else's day incredible, because sure as hell no one is going to do this for me. For example, this one guy who everyone dislikes-I'm sending him a flowergram wishing him a good day and signing it from "a friend". I figure he hasn't received a Valentine since back in Elementary School days when you were required to give a Valentine to everyone in the class. So I thought it might brighten up his day. Also, I'm throwing a just because party this weekend and inviting people who haven't been to a party in years. They seemed very very ecstatic about this fact.*

So we'll see how the next few days go.

FTI is going pretty well right now. There are more ads than I would like. Sisko is off with whatever is going on in his life (and I miss him...), Doc Ashley returned (inserts clapping/applause sound here), I don't know where Adam is...and Echos is busy with a musical or something I think she said. So I'm basically the only moderator there again..?

I don't really know what else to say right now???? So I guess this was more of a BPV than a Thought blog but whatever it's my blog and I'll do as I want.
-xoxox ToRi/Miley
P.S. I love you forever if you're actually reading this..