Boring Post Part I

Apparently I'm becoming a vampire according to my mom. I'm apparently:
-pale
-stick thin
-tired looking
-and I never leave my room

And apparently those traits are all those of a vampire. Maybe it makes sense, seeing as I AM anemic...who knows.

So this is another worthless pointless post from yours truly because I'm bored and if anyone is still reading I guess then it's okay to update so they don't get bored like me. Yey.

I motived myelf today, imagine that. I know...it was hard. I had to sign up for an account on turnitin.com for my english teacher *rolls eyes.* Dang, no more plagiarizing, shucks (if you can't tell I think it's about the stupidest thing ever). And then I finished another chronicle (chapter) of the story I'm writing in my free time. And then I did laundry, it was amazing I actually did stuff! But then I sat down to write my English paper and my motivation kind of committed suicide so no more accomplishments for today.

I'm still contemplating Sadies. The dance when the girls ask the guys to the dance.

I'm pretty sure this one guy from Cinderella likes me, let's call him T. And this other guy, F, he kinda seems interested too...(he's always tickling me and flirting but then again maybe this is in my imagination).

It's hilarious actually. Because T is totally obvious and basically stalks me. He always ends up standing beside me, trying to flirt with me. And if I don't laugh at one of his jokes, he'll stand right there and tell me he's a failure because he couldn't make me laugh. Oh and he asked me to be in this dance he's choreographing and I looked at his planning (positions) and I'm ALWAYS right next to him.

Now, this is the strange part. So this one girl in Cinderella painted a note on our stage asking Nate to the dance. So while we were practicing it was still written on the stage. So F comes up behind me and starts a conversation with me something like this:

F: "So, have you asked anyone to Sadies yet?"

Me: "No, I'm not even sure if I'm going to go yet."

F: "Oh, I see...well, I just wanted to tell you that I'm Muslim, and um that we can't date."

Me: (In my head) .oO(Okay...cool..?)

F: (outloud): "I just wanted to tell you so I didn't like break your heart or anything. I mean it's not anything new but I just can't date."

Me: *Laughs* "How arrogant are you?"
and how arrogant is he? He just assumed that I like liked him or something because I talked with him and he flirts with me! *shrugs* Boys are so messed up.

There's this one guy I wouldn't mind asking but the thing is:
a) I don't like him as more than a friend...at least I don't think so.
b) I don't think he'd say yes.

See, he and I have a lot in common, we both like fighting and being physical. And we both have been involved in drama in the past (he's not in Cinderella though because he's boxing). I found out during the whole Evan experience when I was talking to him about it, that at one point he had liked me and I told him I had liked him at one point (true, at Homecoming I realized I kept looking for him and I danced with him the last dance when I had realized I liked him at the time..). But like, I bet he's moved on and like I don't want to embarass myself, but a comment he said about Sadies a while ago keeps coming to mind..something about how he was hoping that some girl would have the guts to ask him to go so he could try something new ya know and stuff like that.

I don't know. Maybe I'm just being a fickle hopeless romantic and searching desperately for someone to care for and to care for me. But I really do want to enjoy this Valentines Day and not just sit there all day wishing beyond all hope that someone would care enough about me to make that day amazing.

And I am realizing that I can't stop thinking about him. During our "advisory" class (which is a worthless class in which we do nothing) he and I always sit there joking about it, or classes, or anything really that comes to mind. He's cute to me, and like I said we have a lot alike...I think I should do it.

Doing it and being wrong or getting turned down would be better then not doing it and looking back and wondering...

Okay, I'll do it. But just how should I ask him? 0.o I don't know how to ask someone in a cute or sweet manner. I do know how to go up to a guy and just straight out ask but I think I'd want something different than that...ideas....?
-xoxox ToRi/Miley