V-DAY (dun dun dun..)

You want to know what's sad?
I kept fooling myself. Like, I went ahead and did the whole flowergram plan. And I just kept telling myself that my life is going to be like a fairy tale for once. I kept telling myself that I'd be in school and this student would walk in to deliver the flowers, and call my name. And it would be from someone saying they cared. Saying I was good enough, that I somehow earned or deserved the flower gram. I was wishing beyond wishing that I could walk around showing off my flower and not let this Valentine's Day be like any other Valentines Day.

There's a reason that fairytales are only seen on paper. Because they don't come true.

So, I went to school and beforehand (and I felt so guilty about this by the way), I went and bought a bag with a ton of nerd boxes inside. So I didn't have any specialized Valentines. So I gave EVERYONE a box. Like anyone who I know their name and one fact about them. Even people I didn't know well I gave a Valentine....but I didn't get any. Not even one. I mean, call me...I don't know....immature or whatever. But my best friend didn't even remember me. Granted she said she didn't remember anyone, but I thought I could at least count on her.

Then every girl in the school was given a paper heart to wear around her neck, and I walked around with it avoiding talking to any guys because if you did you had to give them your heart. So it was a miserable day...no fairytale. I guess that even though I pitied that one guy enough to buy him a flowergram, that I'm even lower than that or something because I wasn't remembered at all....I don't know. Maybe I'm selfish because I want to be rewarded. But that's not entirely it..I just want to feel cared for for once...
Ah well..another V-Day (Single's Awareness Day) come and gone..
-xoxox ToRi/Miley