I'm a Princess!

So I'm really flattered but also worried...

See, I'm the Vice President of German National Honors Society at my school. I probably do the most of my club and I set up e-mail and other systems of doing things and always participate in our community service of recycling. Basically I'm one of, if not the most active member in that club. So everyone knows me in it.

Well Mardi Gras celebration is coming up and all the foreign language clubs and honor societies work together to create this social gathering with dancing, partying, and food and stuff like that. Well, there's a tradition that a male and female from each group is elected as Prince and Princess and obviously from my title of the post, you can guess what happened.

I didn't want to be princess-well, I did. I think deep down every teenage girl wants a chance to shine and be noticed above everyone else. Well, a few meetings before elections, Frau brought up the elections to remind us to come to the meeting next week. A guy named Steve laughed and said, "Well obviously Tori is the Princess." I was so flattered that he had said that but also dreadfully embarassed.

I forgot about it by lunch because I mean, it's just some guy saying his opinion...but Meredith, another member DIDN'T forget. As soon as I sat down next to her she sends me almsot a scowl and scoffs, "So you think you're going to be the Princess?"

Me: "Um, I don't know. We have elections next time to find out who will be."

Meredith: "Well, do you want to be the Princess."

Me: "Well yeah...but I mean who doesn't...?"

It was then that I realized, that Meredith was pissed at me because of a comment some guy said stupidly.

So today was elections.
And first we voted for the Prince. And someone said Steve (imagine that the guy who predicted me being the princess), and I seconded it simply because Steve had been going on and on about how he didn't want to be the prince.

Then Frau asked who should be the Princess. And Steve automatically said, "Tori."
So I shouted really loudly and pointed desperately at her saying, "MEREDITH!"

So Frau put it to a vote and selected me as the first vote....everyone except for my ex-boyfriend and Meredith and me raised their hands. So yeah, I was pretty much elected the Princess.

I tried to let Meredith get the Princess...I really did. It was going to be me without a vote if I hadn't nominated her with so much enthusiasm. But like....it's bittersweet. I feel guilty, but it's not my fault they voted for me. And I'm so happy that I get to be a Princess...it's just so hard to feel happy without feeling guilt....I don't know..just a rant...
-xoxox ToRi/Miley

What to do...

Hmmm, I've been thinking to myself and I honestly don't know how to act this Valentine's Day.

Ah....Valentine's Day...

Valentine's Day is a holiday with good intentions but has been abused to make slutty or extremely lucky girls have an excuse to brag about not being single, while girls like me get to sit there and hand out Valentines to friends and families and pretend I'm just as happy as the taken girls....*growls lightly*

Last year was the first year I had ever gotten a Valentine from a guy, (except for the required ones everyone in the class has to give to everyone in elementary school) but it was creepy because I had asked this guy to Sadies (in case you don't have it, it's a dance at my High School near Valentine's Day when girls have to ask the guys to the dance).

Story time. So, I asked this guy, Doug, to Sadies last year, you see, I meant to ask him as a friend, but he cut me off saying yes eagerly and I didn't have the heart to correct him. All Sadies he was stalking me. Um, yeah I know that's hard to explain seeing as he was my date, well, think about this, how would you feel if you had to go to the bathroom, excused yourself and went and then came out to find your creepy date standing right there waiting for you! On the dance floor regardless of fast or slow song he felt the need to pop my personal bubble, I mean even when we were standing by the snacks and talking with friends I could like feel his chest pressing against my shoulder....and during slow dancing he drew circles on my back sincerely freaking me out...I don't know, it was overall creepy...

So on Valentines Day he gave me a rose and asked me out. I felt horrible, but I had to refuse...I was too creeped out-it felt so wrong.

So yeah I have like the thirty boys from each of my elementary school classes and my creepy last Sadies date Doug who have ever given me a Valentine. Oh yeah, and my friends.

Well, that time of year is coming around. People are already talking about Sadies and I don't know what to do. I feel lame if I don't ask someone to go with me, but I'm not sure if I'm attracted to or liking anyone. And after my Evan experience I'm not sure if I'm ready to get into something if it's misinterpreted like it was with Doug. So yeah....this is one post I think I want comments on....

I have like two guys who I think would say yes and I wouldn't mind going with as friends. I don't know...I just have this really large desire to feel loved and cared for...so yeah.

Yet another post (filled with "So yeahs") from yours truly,
-xoxox ToRi/Miley

Lacrosse Game

Hey everyone!

I'm all kinds of happy right now because I just got back from my indoor league lacrosse game. ^.^

AND I DID AMAZING!
Call me self centered and I just won't listen to you because I'm on endorfins and because I scored THREE times!! Not one...not TWO....but... THREE times!!!!! I've only ever done that once before so yeah very proud of myself.

Although it kind of didn't count as three because for one of them I got a crease violation, which means I went into the goalie sphere...ah well. I'm still counting it because it was a good shot.

And what did upset me was my coaches reaction after I shot with my left hand. She like got MAD at me for venturing out when with any other girl I would've been praised for trying to take a weak handed shot. She yelled at me from the side, "Tori, if you're going to take a shot regardless of what hand shot you take, actually put your all into it. Otherwise, don't shoot." So then I got pissed, got the ball, charged in and shot the ball right handed and naturally scored.

See, my coach has a grudge against me that I'll post about later....for now I gotta go and eat dinner and stuff.
-xoxox ToRi/Miley

FTI

Yeah so things were pretty hectic and crazy on FTI. See, I think it was yesterday, virusag made three more moderators. Sisko, Adam and Chuck. I know Chuck and I have had our differences in the past but apparently he's had some differences with a few other people. Well now he's banned and saying he's not coming back even if given the opportunity (on another account of course). So yeah....two new moderators now. And congrats to them both!

So I'm kind of stressed about school and I'm having a REALLY hard time getting motivated to do anything in school (especially in APUSH). It's just that time of year when I've lost enthusiasm for school and school work. Junior-itis is a bitch.

So yeah nothing else really to write about just thought I'd stop by like promised.
-xoxox ToRi/Miley

Past Few Days

Okay so apparently I'm about the dumbest red headed blonde girl there is. I've been trying to sign on to blogger for the past few days using my display name when I should've been using my email. I tried every password I've ever used on any account and none of them worked. So after freaking myself out to death I was about to go and register again and make another account like Voltaire_Girl2 or something, when it asked for my email address and I suddenly realized, hey maybe you're supposed to sign in with your email address. So I tried it once and got in immediately....goes to show you how I've been lately.

Lately I've been falling asleep in my APUSH class. Which APUSH stands for Advanced Placement United States History class. Not only do I have no interests in the many documents that formed the nation I live in, but my teacher SUCKS. She could put a kid who is high off of sniffing dry erase markers and drinking whole liters mountain dew fall asleep. So yeah I've been falling asleep and my grades have been dropping...*shrugs* Something to talk about I guess.

My school's talent show was last night. It went really well other than they stopped our music during our dance, so I did what any dancer would've done at a competition and kept going. Luckily my two partners did the same although one of them wouldn't stop telling me the obvious, "The music stopped!" And while we kept going the sound booth started the music again so we also had to improvise something there, so I stood did a fancy dancer run and leapt off of the stage and apparently they followed suit. So yeah didn't end up that badly.

And other than all this stuff I had this one guy named Evan from my psychology class catch me when I was down from being dumped by my ex-girlfriend. Evan told me all these things about how he liked me and he wanted me to be his girlfriend so yeah, I ended up being a bit physical with him. I gave him a blow job and a hand job. And yeah naturally as everyone does, he threw me aside saying he didn't know where I had gotten the idea he wanted me as his girlfriend and that since I was one year younger it wouldn't work out no matter what happened. So yeah, I was basically "double-dumped."

I guess shit happens but it still hurts....

Anyway, I don't know what else to write about, just wanted you all to know (if there's anyone there) that I figured it out and I know how to get back online again.
-xoxox ToRi/Miley

Things That Make Me Happy

(Sure a nice random post for you all while I continue to try to figure things out):

-good grades-when I finally motivate myself to not procrastinate and I do my homework and get it done-being appreciated-exercising-friends definitely!-when it rains-when it's hot enough for me to wear a skirt comfortably or run in the sprinklers-flirting-being flirted with-making someone smile-making someone laugh-feeling like I helped someone-deleting ads-changing insults into compliments on the FTI Photo Gallery-FTI in general-puppies or dogs-cats (if they aren't mine)-sunset-dancing-gymnastics or acrobatics-playing music with either a great dancing beat or amazing lyrics in my car and singing with the windows rolled down not caring what anyone else says or thinks about my music or my singing-any form of PDA, like holding hands, hugging, kissing, etc.-chocolate...shouldn't eat so much of it though...*-*-summer-being alone "me-time"-finishing writing a story-writing a story period-losing weight or fitting into the next size down...(it's true..I feel ecstatic)-winning like any competition I'm a very competitive person -roller coasters and thrilling amusement park rides-dreaming whether it be during the day or the night I am fascinated by my dreams and I never want to wake up, just want to keep seeing this story unfold in my head-being able to laugh: at a joke or my own stupidity-the color orange-computers (I was bawling when mine broke..ask Dan lol)-corny things-chick flicks-horror films

Hey

Hey everyone!
I'm not into the whole myspace thing, but having an online diary....hmm I don't know what might be kind of neat. Lol. Yeah I'm such a retard using words like "neat" anyway...

Nothing important happened today. I had a very cool conversation with Cindy and Amber that quickly heated things up a bit. Quite enjoyable I must say.

I was forced against my will to go to church, the only good thing about this is the fact that I'm in the choir so I'm improving my voice through this. Maybe next year I will get a good part in the musical because of this weekly practice and then performance. *shrugs* Oh well, I'm basically guaranteed a dancing role. So yeah this is my entry for 1/21/07 I suppose.
Until next time I get the opportunity to bore you.
-xoxox ToRi/Miley