May 1st, 2007

Today was hard academically. I had a math test for one thing and on the non-calculator portion I got a 94. I'm proud of it but I made a stupid mistake witht he quare root of sinx answers and forgot to put them in negative as well as in positive which made me frustrated since on a similar problem on the back page I remembered. I don't know what I got on the calculator portion yet. Math is a strange subject to me. It appeals to me because teacher's attitudes towards you can't change the fact that you're correct, (like in an English essay, a teacher can mark you down for whatever they feel really, whereas in math if you have the right answer there's not much they can do to make it somehow wrong). I like the fact that Math is universal, that we're doing the same math here as in Germany or Cuba, or Vietnam, or Japan. It's incredible that out of basically everything in the world it's one thing we share. At the same time, I hate it. I'm good at it, I find it dull and unexciting. I can sit in class, and listen to my ipod, look up every once in a while, know what's going on, ans answer the problem, then go back to listening to music and get a 94. I have a hard time motivating myself to do homework for that class because for me it's not necessary. I can learn without it when it comes to math, even in honors pre-calculus. Other than that, I had another "test" in AP Language and Composition, it was a practice test for the AP test coming soon and I didn't do too amazing in my opinion so now I'm incredibly worried about the upcoming tests. I don't have a large enough vocabulary I've decided, so I guess my next project is going to be reading books and looking up every single word I don't understand completely..which is dull but hey, I have to learn it somehow. Then there was German Club, where I'm the secretary (in German National Honors Society I'm the Vice President) so I had to count up the accumulated throughout the course of this year and determine who will be lettering And only like 8 out of 20 are. That's pathetic. I don't understand how people without any after school commitments or anything like that can be so lazy whereas people like me who are very concerned will take time before and after our activities and make time for working for the club. Ah well, maybe it's just a joke for some people. Just gets frustrating when those of us who try have to pick up the slack of those who don't. I made a fool of myself in Psychology when I didn't know any of the psychologists, I have a MAJOR problem remembering names and what they did without faces to pin it to and searching faces down would take FOREVER! Lacrosse season is officially over (if we had had one more win we would've made play offs) meaning my running and gymnastics are going to start back up to take up some of my free time, but most likely I'll be on here even more utilizing some of my time, (I know, I was like never here before *rolls eyes at myself*). Well, today my friend Sammi mentioned that she was going to try to hook me up with some guy from another high school...I'm not excited. I told her so myself that I wasn't interested but she doesn't seem to get it and seems vehement on her idea of making sure I have a date for prom. Right now I still don't have a date, but I wouldn't enjoy myself at prom with anyone but John..and maybe my friends. I got to talk wtih John today and to read his diary. I feel badly about the long distance. I wish I could feel his embrace and everything but in a way, as corny as it sounds, I already can feel him. I just hope he can last until this summer when he'll be coming here to visit me. We'll take a ton of pictures for you all, and a few extra just for the two of us. *grins* I know we can last that long and WAY longer. I love you John. -xoxox ToRi/Miley