What to do...

Hmmm, I've been thinking to myself and I honestly don't know how to act this Valentine's Day.

Ah....Valentine's Day...

Valentine's Day is a holiday with good intentions but has been abused to make slutty or extremely lucky girls have an excuse to brag about not being single, while girls like me get to sit there and hand out Valentines to friends and families and pretend I'm just as happy as the taken girls....*growls lightly*

Last year was the first year I had ever gotten a Valentine from a guy, (except for the required ones everyone in the class has to give to everyone in elementary school) but it was creepy because I had asked this guy to Sadies (in case you don't have it, it's a dance at my High School near Valentine's Day when girls have to ask the guys to the dance).

Story time. So, I asked this guy, Doug, to Sadies last year, you see, I meant to ask him as a friend, but he cut me off saying yes eagerly and I didn't have the heart to correct him. All Sadies he was stalking me. Um, yeah I know that's hard to explain seeing as he was my date, well, think about this, how would you feel if you had to go to the bathroom, excused yourself and went and then came out to find your creepy date standing right there waiting for you! On the dance floor regardless of fast or slow song he felt the need to pop my personal bubble, I mean even when we were standing by the snacks and talking with friends I could like feel his chest pressing against my shoulder....and during slow dancing he drew circles on my back sincerely freaking me out...I don't know, it was overall creepy...

So on Valentines Day he gave me a rose and asked me out. I felt horrible, but I had to refuse...I was too creeped out-it felt so wrong.

So yeah I have like the thirty boys from each of my elementary school classes and my creepy last Sadies date Doug who have ever given me a Valentine. Oh yeah, and my friends.

Well, that time of year is coming around. People are already talking about Sadies and I don't know what to do. I feel lame if I don't ask someone to go with me, but I'm not sure if I'm attracted to or liking anyone. And after my Evan experience I'm not sure if I'm ready to get into something if it's misinterpreted like it was with Doug. So yeah....this is one post I think I want comments on....

I have like two guys who I think would say yes and I wouldn't mind going with as friends. I don't know...I just have this really large desire to feel loved and cared for...so yeah.

Yet another post (filled with "So yeahs") from yours truly,
-xoxox ToRi/Miley